Driving my life away

You've got a 500 mile drive ahead of you, but you can only listen to one CD on repeat the entire trip. (Technical problems. I don't know.) What album would you choose as your companion?

I was on a road trip once back in my youth days. It was a group of 6 guys in a dad’s sedan heading back from dallas after a long day of playing Photon (arena laser tag)

From dallas to OKC everyone was loud and happy and loud and talking and loud

We stopped in at mcdonalds in OKC to grab a bite to eat and switch drivers.

I took over the driving details

My friend slapped in a sex pistols tape into the drive and off we went.

Yeah, you know where this is going

We were maybe a good mile down the road, if that far and silence dropped over the vehicle like a wet blanket.

Every single one of those bastards zonked out.

So here I was, exhausted after a very vigorous day with 3 long hours of dark flat plains ahead of me.

After about the 4^th loop around on the tape I was sick of sid vicious.

It wasn’t my car so I was blindly slapping at the tape player trying to get I to eject.

Finally my flailing paid off and it ejected out

Ahh that was better.

My friend stirred long enough from his slumber in the passenger side to mumble “whats going on”

I informed him “nothing just sick of the music and we are almost to the border”

Without another word he slapped the tape back in and rolled over.

Curses.

Finally we were getting closer to home and I could see a car in front of us, first car I had seen in an hour.

When from out of the darkness I saw the grim reaper rise from the hood of the car. Brandishing it scythe and flowing black robes.

It then leapt into the sky and transformed into a dark black phoenix and flew off.

“SOMEONE ELSE NEEDS TO DRIVE!!”

Finally made it home in 1 piece and to this day I cannot stand listening to the sex pistols.

 

0420

Today is my 22nd wedding anniversary.

this is important

My son

I just could not be any prouder of my son. I burst with pride and joy just looking at him.

He is a great boy growing into a fine young man.

He has a kind heart and wants nothing more than to be liked by his peers.

You see, Boy has never really had a friend.

I take that back he had a friend once, back when he was in cub scouts, so they must have been 7or8ish.

They were good pals but then his buddy dropped him.

So, before that and for the past 7+ years he hasn’t been invited over to a friend’s house, he hasn’t been invited to spend the night, he doesn’t get phone calls, text messages, emails or even facebook pokes, he hasn’t even been asked to “come out to play”. All of his requests for the same have all been turned down as well. He continually reaches out to his peers to try and gets some sort of acceptance from them and gets nothing back. Sometimes he gets hated on but mostly it is just nothing, which can be so much worse. He has a couple of…I would call them acquaintances but nothing more beyond that.

So day after day he sits in his room and plays on his computer.

You see, Boy has a number of strikes against him .

He has a speech impediment; he didn’t start talking until he was 4 or 5 and has been working very hard to make his speech intelligible.

He also has ADHD

And a learning disability

But he also has this huge caring heart. For instance: He was once suspended from elementary school because he stood up to a bully that was picking on a little kid. He has a great imagination and just loves to laugh.

The other day he posted on facebook that “it was his first soccer game of the year and he would really appreciate it if someone/anyone would come out to watch him play”

He didn’t even get a response.

It just breaks my heart on a daily basis.

Here is this wonderful kid (not just being biased here, his teachers see it and members of our church see it) and all he wants to do is be accepted. I just want to go to his school and violently shake each kid and scream at them how wonderful he is.

I try to be a friend to him/for him but there is only so much I can do.

I have to be a parent first.

He really just needs to have someone his own age to pal around with.

To laugh and experience life as a kid with. Even to get in trouble with.

I am also afraid that his desire to be accepted will lead him to a bad place where he will do anything to just get attention from his peers. He has already shown signs of this including lending his iPod to a girl he had just met.

I just have no clue what to do.

I am Tired

I am not a war monger. I cannot monger even on a good day. I’m just tired. I am tired of this dirty little world with its shameful actions and horrific reactions.
We have evil beings shooting infants in the face for a couple of dollars. Crazy halfwits shooting up movie theaters and schools Crazy evil halfwit beings declaring their insignificant country will take on and fight the rest of the world.
I. Don’t. care.
I would like nothing more than to see north korea blown completely off the map and turned into a huge shiny parking lot.
 “but what of the humanity? What about….”
Nuh-uh
Maybe you missed the previous statement.
 I don’t care.
 I am just fed up with this steady decline of humanity. We are showing very few signs of improvement or growth as a species. We are petty and greedy and selfish as a whole and we deserve to be hurt on a global scale. So bring on the apocalypse. Fire up the earth sized barbecue and let’s get to roasting. Just make it quick though, nothing too lingering. Just a fast flash and its over.
Because like I said,
I am tired.